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O.A.N.D.M.A.I
00:53
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Last Regrets
01:48
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I tried, I failed
Why
Even bother
Sometimes it’s best
To
Throw the towel in
If anyone
Could
See it coming
It wouldn’t be
Half as funny
My life, my time
This is my own decision
It’s time I did something selfish
But my greatest regret
Is that I won’t be there
To see all my new friends
Crawl out of the woodwork
Wearing their fake sympathy
And well rehearsed memories
And notice the humor and the irony as they clean up the mess I made
Notice the first to pass blame
And the nonchalance with which they wash their hands
Of the mess that they’ve made
A sad testament that no one cared
If anyone could see it coming, it wouldn’t be half as funny
And notice the humor and the irony as they wash their hands of the mess that they made
From this vantage point
It’s easy to appreciate
The humor and the irony
No one else gets it
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3. |
Pain and Lust
04:02
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Admired from a distance
Like forbidden fruit
Oh so sweet but slightly toxic
Just enough to drive you crazy
Such a large part of my world
Unbeknownst to her
In her world, I don’t exist
Not for long
Pain
Stains on white skin
Lust
Tender white skin
My midnight confession
You’re the object of my obsession
You know it’s me at the end of the line
You know I think about you all the…time
I know when you’re home, just a thought to drive you crazy
Come to me, in my dreams, how I obsess, it drives me crazy
I can see you feel my stare – squirm – you drive me crazy
Such a large part of my world
I think I’m …
I feel you’d be sympathetic
You don’t know what I’ve been through
Now I froth at the mouth
Quench my thirst, drive me crazy
I didn’t k now what I had
And now you’re leaving soon
You will be long to me
Don’t struggle
Pain
Stains on white skin
Lust
Black and blue skin
Warm flesh splits, thin flesh tears
By varying degrees of force
Natural reactions counteract
Self defense
Blood eases friction in an already docile hole
The act done, the body falls
Thin flesh tears
From a minimal amount of force
No more instinct to defend, body and will succumb
Trails of blood converge
In a now burning hole
The act done, the body falls
My heard was atrophied
Dry and desiccated
You made painful blood pump through
Cold and callous was my game, I was dead 'till you made my heard beat painfully again
I know when you’re home, just a thought to drive you crazy
Come to me, in my dreams, how I obsess, it drives me crazy
I can see you feel my stare – squirm – you drive me crazy
Such a large part of my world
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4. |
Immaculate Deception
05:58
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An antiquity, drowning in its own hypocrisy
Proven wrong yet offer no apology
It’s a pitiful attempt to save face
A novelty, disproved by logic and technology
Still clinging to their false beliefs
And slowing the progression of our race
Irresponsibility
Think you should be taken seriously
Pushed agenda in our public policy
Your power should be weakened in the state
Stupidity, your faith has no validity
Destruction is coming internally
Your truths are just the lies that you create
Your holy shepherds have defiled your dogma
The blood drops raining are Christ’s tears
Pushing you skeletons into a closet
And playing dumb for all these years
Inquisition
Holocaust
Inquisition
Rape
Human, born evil like the rest
Human, you’re not blessed
Don’t turn your back now
Don’t want to admit that you were wrong
Painful to question faith and know
You were
Wrong all along
Suffer the children unto me
Don’t spare the rod for the abuse
And then the preacher said unto them
“This boy had me seduced”
An antiquity, drowning in its own hypocrisy
Proven wrong yet offer no apology
It’s a pitiful attempt to save face
A novelty, disproved by logic and technology
Still clinging to their false beliefs
And slowing the progression of our race
Irresponsibility
Think you should be taken seriously
Pushed agenda in our public policy
Your power should be weakened in the state
Stupidity, your faith has no validity
Destruction is coming internally
Your truths are just the lies that you create
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Stockholm Syndrome
03:10
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Likely story, how pathetic, giving in to what the world expects from you
Mentality of a victim, you’re just a prisoner of your own design
Don’t you know, that in this city, the streets are paved with fucking black tar?
The choice you make, and in its wake, the ties you break, the life you take.
No matter what they told you,
There is no drug that cures this
Before you try those lines on me, come up with something good enough to fool yourself
I can’t condone your self-destructive ways.
And I won’t listen to your self-deluding rationale.
You can’t keep on telling yourself
That you’re right where you belong
You can’t keep on telling yourself
That you’re right where you belong
We lied to ourselves when we said…
But you were right where you belonged
You love your jailor
You love your cell
You find your heaven in your own living hell.
The smell of burnt plastic won’t cover up the stench of rotting corpses
and failure in this clandestine mortuary
So regain your pride, grow a spine,
Though I tried to help
There were just too many gravestones to trip me between here and there
No matter what they told you,
There is no drug that cures this
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6. |
Waking Nightmare
06:51
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Clench my teeth as my blood boils.
I press my ear against the door.
Try to tread the higher ground.
Resenting my envy over this transgression.
Fictional reality.
Scenes unfold in front of me.
I know this is just a dream
but I must see how it ends.
Who am I
Where was I
Was it real or in my mind?
Hours lost
No recollection
Fractured memories replay
Am I searching
for something
or running away?
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The glasslike fragility
Of memory and identity
The ground is slowly falling
From underneath my feet
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Collapse
Under the weight of guilt
Drowning
In a sea of betrayal
But how do you let yourself feel guilt for the worst thing you never did?
It might be self delusion and me on the other side of the door
I’m still dreaming
I won’t be there after this
Blurring lines
In between
Fiction and reality.
The voice I’m hearing
Sounds like mine - is it
Dialogue or soliloquy?
I know this is
Just a dream
But I must see
How it ends
Collapse
Under the weight of guilt
Relapse
It’s happening again
Watching myself from a third person view like someone else is pulling the strings
Am I Indulging in a fantasy or denying what I really am?
At the base of the citadel
Scaling the wall to infinity
Embodiment of a personal hell
A taunting colossus stares down at me.
If this is all just a dream
Does it matter how it ends?
Every night I’m back again
Effigy of my worst nightmares
If this is all just a dream
Does it matter how it ends?
Metaphysical metaphor
An endless obstacle to climb
If this is all just a dream
Does it matter how it ends?
Collapse
Relapse
Who was I then?
Who am I now?
Which part of me is the lie?
Hours lost
No recollection
Fractured memories replay
Am I searching
for something
or running away?
Blurring lines
In between
Fiction and reality.
The voice I’m hearing
Sounds like mine - is it
Dialogue or soliloquy?
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Scaling an endless wall
To escape the prison of my mind
A futile endeavor
This is the part that goes on forever
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Perception
coming to a screeching halt.
And as the end draws near
I know it was all my fault
As my face smashes through the glass and my life flashes before my eyes
I try to hold on to my conscious mind because I need to see what’s on the other side
I won’t be there
Self deception
The words I’m hearing sound like mine
Vicarious
Indulgence
It was me the whole time
Wishing
Lusting
Dreaming
Making it real
In my thoughts or in my deeds
Shamed for what I might have done
Real or not
Either way,
it’s a nightmare
I can’t wake up from
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7. |
Dead Stripper
02:52
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I just started driving at random.
The city is a landfill, so I knew that I belonged there.
Saw a liquor store with a dirty broken neon
Sign of the times – hearkens to our desperation
I didn’t mean it when I called her an angel
Because I pay her to serve and I pay you to die.
I refuse to believe this is for my protection
Because I lost all hope and I lost my erection.
You don’t even know what her name was, do you?
Low income housing really kills the horizon
You don’t even know what her name was, do you?
Low income housing really kills the horizon
I just started driving at random.
The city is a landfill, so I knew that I belonged there.
Saw a liquor store with a dirty broken neon
Sign of the times – hearkens to our desperation
I didn’t mean it when I called her an angel
Because I pay her to serve and I pay you to die.
I refuse to believe this is for my protection
Because I lost all hope and I lost my erection.
You don’t know what her name was, do you?
Low income housing really kills the horizon
You don’t know what her name was, do you?
Low income housing really kills the horizon
Don’t even care what her pain is, do you?
When you fuck them you don’t look in their eyes
You don’t know what her name was, do you?
Put my hands behind my back
Give me a heart attack
Who can I turn to now? Because -
She died too soon, so let’s exhume
She died too soon, so let’s
What we lost from your hypocrisy
The best therapy money can buy
What we gain from your bureaucracy
Another name for the public to decry
Put my hands behind my back
Give me a heart attack
She’s never coming back
Who can I turn to now? Because -
She died too soon, so let’s exhume
She died too soon, so let’s exhume
She died too soon, so let’s exhume
She died too soon, so let’s -
Some people say, she was dead anyway. So what’s so wrong with digging her up…
The city will wash the blood off the concrete,
While you sit hiding in the back seat,
The good old boys downtown will quash the heat
We’ll have a good fucking laugh at them…
Some people say, she was dead anyway. So what’s the problem let’s dig her up… again
You don’t even know what her name was, do you?
Low income housing really kills the horizon
You don’t even know what her name was, do you?
Low income housing really kills the horizon
Don’t even care what her pain is, do you?
When you fuck them you don’t look in their eyes
You don’t know what her name was, do you?
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8. |
Onanism
03:41
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A grandiose interpretation of perception
Through a voice that perpetuates deception
Pay no attention to what’s behind the curtain
An abstract construct where nothing is certain
A watchmaker creating in seclusion
An avatar born of arrogant delusion
Fabrications I indite
Anything but my real life
Here is a list of all the things that make me fucking sick
Inflate my importance, just to make you feel like shit
Flaunting triumph in a passive aggressive war
We don’t all fight but we’re all keeping score
Hell is other people
I no longer speak their language
Holding in my vomit
The stench of life makes me fucking nauseous
All deception, smoke and mirrors, they won’t see me
Altering reality
All deception, smoke and mirrors, they won’t see me
Hiding in the smoke screen
All deception, smoke and mirrors, they won’t see me
Altering reality
All deception, smoke and mirrors, they won’t see me
Voyeurism through one way mirrors
An opaque vision of a crafted image
Solitary misanthropic self stimulation
Hell is other people
I no longer speak their language
Holding in my vomit
The stench of life makes me fucking nauseous
A grandiose interpretation of perception
Through a voice that perpetuates deception
Pay no attention to what’s behind the curtain
An abstract construct where nothing is certain
An experiment in human isolation
Trading intercourse for mental masturbation
A self-serving narcissistic proclamation
Meant to mask a sense of quiet desperation
Stand in shock and awe at the perfection I’ve created
An orgasmic sense of pride, like the first time god masturbated
Looking down,
Throwing up
Playing god and Jerking off
Jerking off
Jerking off
Jerking off
What’s behind the door? Don’t let it be my real life
What’s in store? Don’t make me live my real life.
Please don’t make me live my real life
You’re not fooling anyone
It’s all transparent
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9. |
Cog in the Machine
04:06
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If I were you and you were me – I’d kill myself to make you happy
But you’re still you and I’m still me – I kill myself, but it’s not enough
It’s not enough…it’s never enough
Take this pain
Take my strain
Take my ulcer
Take these chains
Take this noose
Take this stress
Take my word - Under duress
Take this pain
Take my strain
Take my ulcer
Take these chains
Take this noose
Take this stress
Take my life and shove it up your ass
The machine will only work
If the parts are all in tandem
Without all the gears in place
This machine is a disgrace
Captain, this ship is sinking
No sails, no oars, what were you thinking?
Seems to me that you were not
Now we get what you have brought –
Nothing……
That’s what you get…(nothing)
The gears turn
Lubricated with blood and sweat
There is no glimmer of hope that tells me today will be different
Time is pain
Every day a carbon copy of the previous
Today things will be different
The machine will only work
If the parts are all in tandem
Without all the gears in place
This machine is a disgrace
Captain, this ship is sinking
No sails, no oars, what were you thinking?
Seems to me that you were not
Now we get what you have brought –
Nothing
Nothing is not enough – everything is not enough. It’s never enough.
Take this pain
Take my strain
Take my ulcer
Take these chains
Take this noose
Take this stress
Take my word - Under duress
How does it feel?
Greasing the loudest wheel.
How does it feel?
Mutiny is coming
If your cat were the size of a tiger it would fucking eat you – remember that
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10. |
(-)
01:21
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11. |
Refuge for Cowards
07:22
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What we created, what did we find?
Virulent minds
De-evolution of common civility.
Dauntless slander
Impudent words
Projection of hatred
Just a façade for one’s inward vitriol.
Hiding behind
Virtual walls
Anonymous armaments
Fosters a courage they’d never know otherwise.
Arrogant ignorance
Envy and bitterness
Self disgust
Proudly spiraling downward to the abyss.
First crawled out of primordial slime,
Growing changing, evolving with time.
Then Degeneration and retrogress
Lead to hating with more, killing with less.
Striking while hiding – the mark of the weak.
Lying, denying, covert conspiring.
Can’t hide forever and soon you will know
Sooner or later you reap what you sow
Gagged and bound, beaten, bloodied.
Your penance has just begun
When did they get so soft? They’re using words instead of swords
Why did they shed their armor? Life is a constant battle.
Do you know
where we
are?
I saw her standing here
Alone and
Forlorn
Crying in the autumn breeze
When I take
Your blindfold
Off
I’ll look you right in the eyes
I can’t
undo
the past
but justice must be served
I should have known the signs, I should have seen the pain in her eyes, the sadness in her voice, but she kept it bottled up inside.
I should have seen it coming, by the whispers and innuendo, but I was naïve to the gravity of what I chalked to up to as immature bullshit.
I should have known before, by the look in her eyes when they knew who she was, but they’ve never met before.
I should have known much better, but instead I kept my mouth shut - a mistake I will never live down, and even shedding you blood won’t absolve this guilt, but…
Blood for blood
Eye for an eye
Hunger for vengeance
Fosters a hatred I’d never know otherwise.
Where did this come from?
What have I become?
Hypocrite maybe, but this I must do to quiet the ghost in my head
Things were simple back in my day
Actions followed by consequence
This simple lesson I’ll drill into your head
When you murder innocence
There must be recompense
I’ll leave you in the open, I’ll not dig you a grave
I won’t deny my actions, I’ll tell them everything
Now we’re all alone, the time has come
Your blood will wash away her tears.
Don’t be a coward
Look me in the eyes and face your death.
As the knife comes down
You cry for help
Your screams will fuel my hatred
Don’t be a coward
This is what you did to yourself
Your pleas for mercy can’t drown out the echo of her cries.
From this day forth that will be no
Refuge for cowards
Courage through fiber optics
I didn’t realize until that night when I saw her dead on the bathroom floor, blood streaming from her wrists and throat, and at that point - I told myself I’ll never, I’ll never keep my mouth shut, lest the world become overrun by the spineless.
Look me in the eyes, die with some dignity
Don’t be a coward, this is what you did to my little girl.
As you beg
for your life
I see you for what you are
A scared child, a cowering worm
From this day forth there will be no
Refuge for cowards
Courage through fiber optics
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12. |
Frozen in Time
04:42
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How can I
Explain the feeling
When time has lost
All its meaning
Existence paused
Amidst sorrow
Perpetual
December
The seasons halt
Time is stagnant
Yet my soul
Is growing older
I haven’t seen
The sun in years
It’s been eclipsed
By doubts and fears
I can’t go anywhere without double checking
and I close my eyes because I can longer
comprehend or believe all the bullshit so I
keep my head down and mouth shut it’s been so long I’ve forgotten…
How
to
talk
Searching for
something to come and break the monotony
Even something bad would be a welcomed change of pace
Something to come and break the monotony
Two black and blue eyes should tell you that I’ve been shown the way more than once
Why don’t we learn from our mistakes
Turn your head and hide the scars like I don’t know what’s going on
Why don’t we learn from our mistakes
Desperate times call for desperate measures agony of anticipation
You’ll never learn from your mistakes
Doesn’t it say a lot about me, doesn’t it you fucking cunt
I’ll make you pay for your mistakes
On that night
I heard the truth and a minute finally passed
Now that I know I’ll never let you forget
Wouldn’t want you to have to live to regret
Like
I
Do
Frozen in time.
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